CL was chatting with me last night, and told me that she helped her ex with the loan and stuff. That guy is now done with buying the house and I guess he will just stay up in SF. I couldn't help thinking why she would be so "generous" and help him through things even after that ugly break up cuz he was having affairs in China. I guess not a lot of people really care about what I think when it comes to relationships...and yet most of the time when I think someone is not worth keeping, it's usually bad at the end. I certainly hope in the future I don't have to feel fishy about my brothers' girls cuz I doubt any of them would actually listen to me....especially the youngest one....sighs....
Anyway....I don't think I would ever be generous on any relationship when I know I am being cheated. Betrayal is just a big thing that I don't get over with. I guess that is the thing that finally got me to leave both of my previous jobs. I just think if there is no more trust between people, then there is no point staying close. This world is already too fake to start with anyway. I don't think we need to make it even worse...
It just amazes me how most people want to find a person and get married and yet not that many actually have a good marriage. I wonder if that is a desire that God puts into human so everyone is still trying so hard even after seeing so many failures...I wish I can see more people around me with REAL sweet and nicely maintained marriages so that adds a little faith in me. Again there are plenty of people FAKING it just so they feel better about the whole thing....but what is the point? I guess I am not all that depressed about my own, but a lot of times I just wish everyone can be happy somehow. Well...I guess happy can also be a relative term too? Who gets to decide if we are happy? right?
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