My Korean friends...

I was chatting with a Korean friend (Miriam) back from high school last night, and got so amused by what she remembered of me. She was telling me how I got so frustrated with a guy (Steven who played trombone, thinks himself very cool all the time, and insisted that he was my twin for some reason) in my math group I almost cried for my very 1st time at Interlochen.... according to Miriam, she was able to save my 1st cry with a pack of Korean ramen noodle. LOL....

Miriam told me she used to live in the room right across from my room....which I completely don't remember at all. I used to have a Korean roommate (Min Kyun) for years, and Miriam told me that Min moved back to Korea also. Miriam went back to Korea right after high school because she decided to stop playing piano (good choice girl...) and Min went back cuz both of her parents died and she couldn't finish her study in the states.

Miriam ended up as a computer programmer and married another programmer who works at Samsung now. Min also married around 3 years ago and has a kid about 1 year old now. Somehow all the Korean people who went to Interlochen are all back in touch and most of them back in Korea. I would never thought that kinda thing would happen cuz all of them used to fight all the time....even Miriam was making fun of that too...oh....and most of them were drinkers & smokers at school....I am so proud of myself not getting affected what so ever by them....

Speaking of that...I wonder why most Korean people are drinkers. Eddie used to drink a lot with Theo too. I think that is how they jacked up their livers. I just noticed that I tend to have Korean friends in the states. That is kinda odd cuz I don't particularly like Korean stuff all that much....even the Korean dramas on TV don't attract me much....maybe I should take a trip and go visit my Korean friends when I get a chance....It would be fun to go somewhere I don't really have that much interest with....lol...

Fingers....

A friend from high school was chatting with me and making a comment that I really don't think like a normal girl....later I was told that there is a "digit" theory that is developed from the ratio of your index finger : ring finger. It's funny cuz according to the theory I do have a more "male" way of thinking with my brain, and it probably explains why I usually find it hard to understand or hang around with girls....

Anyway....here is the link if anyone is interested.....I was quite surprised this theory is quite well known amongst the science world.... http://www.eurekalert.org/pub_releases/2004-10/bis-aft102004.php

By the way....the greater difference between index and ring finger length leads to a more violent and aggressive guy. (ring finger being the longer one...which is supposed to be normal for guys...) For the girls who want to know what kinda guy they are dealing with ...lol....

Short weekend....

I feel tired cuz I haven't been sleeping well for several days already. My student rescheduling her morning lessons with me really does not help....(cuz when I have things scheduled in the morning I just can't help worrying about not getting up on time....and then I can't sleep well....) Hades is now snoring on the sofa cuz he didn't get to sleep much either....(Ok....this was what I wrote from Sat....)

Now it's Mon and things seem a little diff. I think my sleep got a little better and I am not as sleepy any more. I am sure I will have more days to catch up before another morning lesson on Thurs. Weekend went by fairly fast and we really didn't do much....

I went to play a wedding for Pauline's sister on Sat. I think it was the shortest gig I ever had...and also the most disorganized for the musicians. I played on Billy's violin cuz I was worried there might be sun and it would be bad for my old dying violin. Funny thing is....it almost rained on Sat...but the wedding was short enough to finish before any water damage. Pauline told me that people think we played beautifully. I was really cracking up cuz we didn't even have microphones and I was very surprised people could hear us....maybe Billy's violin was indeed loud :p

Sun we went to buy some food and bumped into parents of my students many years ago. We ended up getting free drinks from them cuz they were excited to see me. I just thought it was funny that they seemed like good friends with me cuz I really didn't enjoy teaching the kids all that much. I guess Chinese people are good at pretending after all. One of the kids graduated from college already....it's amazing how fast time goes...and amazing how I am not that much older than my students....kinda weird....

I guess the power of my cape of favor from God is still working....even though it's on small things...LOL...

What? I don't remember.....

This is one paragraph from 蔡康永's blog that I read this morning....

「擁有」跟「享有」，是有差距的。

不少家庭「擁有」鋼琴，但並不「享有」鋼琴──他們的鋼琴是家具、是展示品，但卻不是家中的音樂、不是生活。

不少財主「擁有」名畫，但並不「享有」名畫──他們的名畫是上流社會的會員證、是金錢比賽的獎盃，但卻不是藝術，既不感動財主、也沒能啟發財主。

「擁有」，但無法「享有」。

Isn't it what a lot of us do? We have lots of things and we want to have more...but then at the end we don't really get to enjoy them?

A friend from high school asked if we can talk on the phone, and I just said I am not a phone person really....The reply I got was "yeah....I almost forgot you were never a phone person back in high school...you cannot change all that much through the years"....It feels quite ironic to read that.... It's true I was never a big fan of phone calls, but for several years before this year I was always on the phone for at least 2000+ mins a month. It's truly amazing how habits change according to who you are with...

What perplexes me really is how people remember certain traits of me in a particular stage of life which I have no recollections of. My elementary school classmate once told me how I used to carry chapstick with me when nobody used it at that age. I was stunned cuz i never remember using them until I came to the states...I wonder if I can remember whatever is happening right now 10 years from now. Maybe I will be reading the blogs and totally wonder who wrote them...? (That is if I can continue this habit and the blogs indeed do get saved somehow 10 years from now...hahahaha)

Early Morning....

Didn't sleep all that well last night, and finally decided to just wake up after my student sms me. I think kids should really learn how not to change someone else's schedule last min. It's just very bad 家教 to do that to people last min. Anyway....nowadays not that many kids actually learn the right stuff from parents....

I am still sleepy after drinking three cups of coffee....but I got a lot of reading done and replied many e-mails + messages. I guess people who wake up early in the morning really get a lot more done everyday. Too bad it's not good for my health...hahaha

Caught a fly in a sandwich bag in the kitchen. I put it on the floor for Hades to play, and apparently he was very annoyed not able to really touch and kill the fly + eat it. He finally gave up playing with it in the bag after an hour or so but now he is trying to get my attention scratching all the paper on our sofa....attention craving cat....

Better eat lunch share with him now before he destroys everything....

May 28th is a weird date

I just discovered that I know three people in my life with the same BD. I was very stunned about this discovery cuz I don't recall remembering that many people's BDs other than my closed ones...All three of them had some sort of significance in diff. stages of my life, and one just came back in touch with me through facebook out of the blue. (Joelle of course is still in touch with me since she didn't leave for that long yet...and thanks to the internet we still know what's up with each other so far...) I am not sure if I would ever want to get back in touch with the remaining one though.... It may just bring back a little too much memory from the past.

What I want to say is.....life is really weird...for some reason certain dates are just more repetitive in my life than others...and yes....I am a little caught off guard about this sudden reunion....Hum...

Hey Ho-Ching....if you are reading what I am typing right now..... in heaven....you must be entertained huh? hahahaha.....

Sound matters....

I have noticed how certain ways of talking annoys me....(especially with guys)....We were watching TV last night and this guy who talked in this "臭屁" style just got on my nerves. (Billy was wondering how but I don't think he would understand it cuz the guy might not appear all that 臭屁 to him) It's the same kinda feeling with that Akai Rice guy on the TV with all the Akai commercials. I either mute the TV or just turn off the TV whenever the commercial is on....

Recently there is a long chiropractic commercial added to the Chinese channel too. The chiropractor goes to church at EFCLA I think... cuz PC used to go to him for treatments. (PC is good at picking people who I don't like to treat him or do stuff for him....very interesting discovery....and he seems to work better with those people too....八字不合 it must be :p....)I don't think I will ever go see the chiropractor no matter how advanced his equipments are... just because his voice sounds like a duck which is having a cold.

I guess I am kinda hard to please with sounds. I don't really think there is any particular reasons for stuff that I don't like.....For example, I hate the voice of that girl called "黃美珍" from 星光大道 cuz I have no idea what "power" those judges are talking about.....to me it's just some sort of unpleasant yelling with no styles. It's kinda interesting though cuz I am not someone with a particularly nice voice or anything....I think the problem is with my ears...

I still remember how 張清芳's voice would always get me a headache whenever I hear it while Chih-Lin plays her CDs. It's just like how certain noises from the TV, lights, electronics, etc, would cause my head to hurt for the whole night. I wonder how sound engineers stand all the massive noises that they have to go through whenever they work. No wonder Jacob tells me that he is getting deaf after so many years....It would be ironic if a sound engineer is actually hearing impaired....unfortunately many of the TW ones are...hahaha....

Yet another forgetful day

Woke up kinda early this morning cuz Billy needed to wake up early. Tried to catch up some more sleep after he left but then the quality was kinda bad. I think I don't feel as tired as Hades does though, cuz he is trying very hard to stay up while I am home. (and unfortunately he will only get to sleep when I leave to teach two students around 3:15...)

I tried to cook some curry for dinner and had fun cutting everything with those wonderful knives Tony and Patty bought us for the wedding. I should of open those earlier to save all those energy I wasted cutting stuff with the Ikea knives....After I finished cutting everything I realized that I don't have curry cubes to use at home....Isn't it great to have everything ready but one part missing at the very end? (yeah like a lot of things in life....)

Went to Ralph's to get the curry cubes cuz I don't think I would have time to go to other markets. Got another bag of toasts cuz I ran out of them last week....and grabbed some yogurt to see if those would help my digestions. I rushed back home, finished cooking the curry, and then realized that I got the wrong brand of toasts. This bag certainly does not taste anything close to what I got last time, and I had to use jam to help the taste. Oh well...it happens...the worst is that Hades does not like this brand either...

Jacob called and told me that his teacher back from Florida feels really diff. (I think the teacher moved to LA for recording projects, and Jacob wanted to hook us up and see if we can work together in the future. Apparently it's gonna be a little diff. than what Jacob thinks...) Jacob said his teacher and teacher's wife used to be a couple that everyone envies cuz they were so in love with each other....but now they are divorced...Jacob couldn't really understand and didn't know exactly what happened....I wonder how marriages can last....or not last....it's just tough....

The wildfire is still going on....getting worse in fact.....It feels really hot and dry when I went out to get stuff. My eyes kinda felt uncomfortable, and so is my nose. I can't even count how many wildfires had been going on around LA this year....It's kinda crazy. Yeah....crazy....like so many things in this world....(It's a nice song though....I know this is totally off the topic....but there is no topic anyway....)

Over the weekend....

Hum....didn't know that I didn't write any blog for this long...I guess I didn't have much to say or make a note of....or maybe I was just lazy....yeah...that is probably the reason....oh well...

Weekend went by starting with Billy's weird one-night sickness...His stomach probably decided to stop functioning cuz there was too much food to process. The stomach came back to funtion after a night of sleep though (I don't know how he was able to sleep better than me while he was feeling sick...oh well....God's blessings....), and Billy cooked some terribly greasy breakfast just to test if everything was alright again (That is my own assumption...hahaha....) Here is a photo of the breakfast he made with ham, bacon, egg (the york was not fully cooked....better skill than I have !!!) and the toasts which I had been in love with for the past week....
Rest of the weekend went by with a not so satisfying An Lee movie, and a not so satisfying production discussion session with typical classical choir musician. Oh well...classical musicians who graduate from mediocre tend to not know what is out there that is all I can say. (Or maybe I am just not into classical singers/conductors who seems gay to me :p....ok....enough indication of how good my 1st impression was toward the guy.....not like I am getting involved with the production anyway....hahahaha...not a chance....)

Just noticed over the weekend that Hades is once again getting some skin problems....I think we probably had been feeding him too much human food and some of the food was too salty or greasy. I hope the problems go away soon cuz he surely does not look happy with his collar back on him most of the time...and he hates it when I try to wash his wounds clean. I was surprised that cats should not eat garlic...and that is probably why most of the food I cook is not too god for him....oh well....even cats have diet problems...too bad this world is not all natural as the Adam and Eve time any more....

I have also been reading this book which Nancy brought back for me. I am pretty sure she would not even open that book to take a glimpse cuz it's full of disgusting things which she would not want to look at. The writer is someone who gets hired to clean up stuff a deceased person leave behind. A lot of the cases are with people who don't get found out dead a month or longer after their death....yeah...the description of the corpse gets gross, but then I think the stories behind each case is interesting....anyway...me weirdo...right....

K....gonna concentrate on my recorded TV cuz two of my students canceled today. I have to say I am fully enjoying my afternoon having no students to teach. Haven't have this kinda good mood in a long time even though I am doing nothing particularly exciting..... :)

Classical musicians......

Joelle was checking out my blogs today, and told me that I write a lot of blogs compared to others....oh well.....not like what I write is all that important really....just not that much to do other than watching TV and writing blogs....hahaha

In the detective series I am watching at noon, the current story involves kids who try to make it as musicians. The girl in the story wanted to learn music and enjoyed playing piano all along till someday she becomes like a trophy for her parents.

Parents for those kids in the "music class" use their kids to accomplish whatever their unfulfilled dreams in their lives....and then kids often get unnecessary pressures and try to find outlets elsewhere. (hanging out with friends, buying expensive stuff, etc...) Most of the "musician" kids come from rich families that can provide all the expenses needed to learn music...and it makes it even harder cuz the kids don't really need to work on anything just for survival thus they end up feeling lost....

What is the problem of rich families? A lot of rich parents don't even have time to spend with their kids. A lot of rich parents put unrealistic expectations on their kids. A lot of rich parents think money can buy everything....(money can buy their kids into good schools even). Kids who liked music and started learning it later on begins to hate music because parents think they can go professional (which is a good thing if their kids can't make it with academics....cuz being a classical musician is still considered a upper class kinda thing anyway....at least it shows you are wealthy enough so you can afford the education....whole bunch of BS....).

Man....even the TV dramas are playing what I see everyday with my students and their stupid parents....what a coincidence.....

Chatting + Drinking + Eating....

Got another massage last night but didn't feel as relaxed as last time. I think Emily was more into talking to me than massaging me....oh well....I guess sometimes it's good to let people talk cuz they need to. I just don't really understand why people want to talk to me....(like how my students want to tell me what is going on in their lives....sighs...) Billy suggested I should start charging for all the chatting...and I am starting to think that is a good idea even though nobody would want to pay for it....my student in college even chats with me on line while she is in class cuz the class is boring....what's up with that?

Woke up early this morning cuz I just couldn't sleep for some reason....Right at this point I am still sleepy after so many hours of drinking coffee + sitting in the living room. I had toast for breakfast and cooked some bacon also. Breakfast (which I usually don't even bother eating unless I wake up too early) reminded me of food mom used to cook for us. I think my brothers really like bacon or something...kinda weird I am remembering that.

I also chatted with Clement a little. He told me he is going broke cuz he just got a fridge (for keeping milk fresh and handy to drink).....It's funny how he is still so much into milk....This kid used to drink milk like people drink water when he was little... (maybe that is why he doesn't have as much teeth trouble as I do?). I guess food from childhood really brings certain memories and most of people keep on eating what they used to eat growing up....

Memories...am I really getting old or something?

Hades under the table

Not much to write about weekend since Billy wrote it all. Here is just a picture of our new table which can really be expanded LONG....twice as long as what you see now...Billy seems to be into getting more furnitures in our apt for whatever reasons....oh well....as long as he likes it. Don't ask me what Hades is doing in the photo....he was trying to tell people to stay out of his territory perhaps...

Found some more high school friends on facebook.....It's amazing how many of them are actually married.. and a Korean friend moved back to Korea right after high school + quit playing piano all together!!!! She is having a busy life and told me that my roommate for two years got married in Korea too and has a kid !!! I guess it's wise to know when to quit music early in age so life can have a completely diff. aspect. Oh well....

I also got hooked up with a Polish friend who was not exactly all that outstanding when he was at school with us. He is now a composer too!!!! How weird...violinist-composer who seems to have a pretty good career in Florida in his 30s. I have to admit I was impressed....(also impressed about how big and old he looks right now..haha). I never thought I would look so much younger than most of the friends back in high school when I get to my 30s....That is the advantage of being Asian I am sure...

A lot of flash backs from younger years....Life is really a weird ride after all....

Friends forever?

Minghuan from my violin studio back at Interlochen hooked me up with facebook few months ago, and told me to hook up with some other people yesterday. I was looking through her friends on the list, and was amazed that she has at least 4-5 people on her list from Interlochen. Jing the pianist left me a message right after I added her on, and was really surprised that I got married....

Well..I guess I never appeared to people that I am the "marriage type" of person...(I myself don't even know if I am really :p)....but well...I am married....end of story....Jing actually stayed at Santa Barbara for the whole summer and we just missed the chance to meet. (She asked me when I got married....so I guess she would probably love to come if she knew it was in July.)

Jing is listed as married with this cute guy...(looks European to me, but probably just grew up in NY). I was trying to remember her relationships back in high school, but had no recollection of anything in my brain. I think she always liked white people though...I am really losing memory cuz I didn't even remember one of the cellist back when I was in USC is actually Jing's cousin....Didn't remember that AT ALL until I saw messages of the cellist left on Jing's facebook....

The one person who surprised me the most when I was looking over Minghuan's friend list was Hong. Hong is this pianist from China who dated a pianist from TW when we were in school. The broke up and got back together in high school, and then both went to NY. I saw Hong's profile picture with the two of them together and was super amazed that they are probably still together. If they are indeed in a relationship now, it would be like a over- 15 years relationship by now?!!!!! I just can't believe it......Gosh....People can be stable sometimes....even musicians....

Well....what did I learn from this whole facebook episode? What I learned was "people are really diff!!!!!!!". There are people who keep in touch with everyone passing by in their lives, and there are people who can stay in the same relationship like FOREVER!!!!! Man....those people really exist!!!!! very hard for someone like me to understand....:p

Talking to students....

I have been talking to students a lot for the past two days. I am really not someone who loves to chat with students to kill time...usually I don't even talk about anything that is not from the music they are trying to study.....but I really felt the need to talk to these two who kinda want to major in music later on.

What saddens me is that these two students who wants to try out for music major are doing it because they are not too great with school work, and their parents think music would be an easier way to get into schools. This is really why there are whole bunch of Asian (especially Taiwanese) so called "musicians" out there trying to make a living with music who are not even close to good. It is also why most musicians hate their parents for all the forcing they had to go through growing up.

I basically just told my students to think about what they really want to do in life using myself as an example. My parents didn't really want me to be a musician, but they let me decide what I wanted to do. Due to my stupid decision to be a musician with the talent I have, I went on and got my degree with music.....but end up not exactly enjoying what I do nowadays. Of course I don't hate doing music, but it gets me trapped with no sense of fulfillment in life because of the students I am teaching and the parents I am dealing with.

Stupid parents really annoy me. They wither want their kids to fulfill their dreams, or they don't care if their kids are happy doing what they do. I think kids older than 15 really has a right to make some decisions in their life cuz at the end nobody should live a life just because their parents planned it all for them. Both of the two students I talked to actually have other things in mind that they want to do, and I told them to really work on it and try all possibilities.

I guess not that many people who teach music would tell their students to seriously consider other opportunities in life...cuz at the end I may lose more students than I can afford....but then I would not want to teach those who are not liking what they learn. I think the whole education system is stupid cuz we always end up learning whole bunch of craps we are either not good at or not interested in at all....

It's too bad that not many people know what they want in life earlier in age or else we wouldn't all waste so much time doing meaningless stuff right? (on top of that....how many teachers are actually honest enough not to agree everything the parents are saying regarding how talented their kids are? Teachers do have to be responsible getting a lot of kids into wrong professions thinking they are doing so well with it...Lies really wold not do man...)

Middle life crisis.....

I was updating my favorite movies on facebook just now....I tried to recall 10 movies that I really liked, and I think most of them I watched before 2000. It really got me thinking...I probably really didn't enjoy life all that much ever since I moved to LA? I tried to think hard on things which happened for the past 10 year or so, and there was not much I can recall....hum....

Maybe I am just getting old and having middle age crisis.... not much is accomplished in life any more, and the only thing I don't get tired doing is petting my cat. Sighs...need to get more coffee cuz I am still sleepy. Couldn't really sleep in this morning for some reason. I hope my insomnia is not coming back to me....

Ice cream at night

Couldn't really sleep.....got up...and then wrote on my msn blog which I didn't touch ever since April. Still couldn't sleep after the long writing....went to get ice cream and started eating. Eating ice cream 2 in the morning is probably not the best thing to do for health reasons...but what importance is health when one can't even figure out what to do with life really? at least it's a new kinda experience anyway.....King Solomon probably has been living in me before I knew it. (yeah...jumping of topic here since I feel everything is so empty...) I wonder if he regretted on things he did. I wonder if he ever regretted asking for wisdom? at least he asked for it right? so he has to be responsible for having it? Maybe wisdom should not be the thing he asked for, but he should ask to be like his father King David...someone who does not think but feel? If everything is so meaningless then what the heck are we striving for in life really? I guess my long writing on MSN does not really help to slow and calm my brain down. The ice cream is not exactly working either...other than getting me colder than I already am. I guess I should sleep since it's almost 2:30.....

Story teller.....

I have been watching this TV drama from TW at noon for the past few weeks. They just started this new drama which is actually produced by a movie director/writer called 吳念真. The drama is based by a series of detective stories from Japanese comic books, but presented in a somehow very 吳念真 kinda way.....

I remember watching few of his movies when I was a kid....(something like 魯冰花)...Everything in his movies go with a very slow pace....He tells the stories in a certain calmness and tries to unfold everything in a delicate and artistic way. A lot of times one has to be patient enough to reach to the end and finally realize what he was trying to get through to the audience.

Actors in this TV drama are not exactly great, but each separate story sends out a pretty interesting message at the end. It is kinda refreshing to watch something like this I guess...cuz nowadays most of TV dramas are only centered around hot actors or actresses with dumb and stupid stories...It could also be the shade of colors being used in this drama....everything looks somewhat antic with a kinda color veil on things.....hum...I know I am weird....why would a musician be so visual?......

Maybe I just miss my childhood.....(getting old)....or maybe I just like good story tellers...like how I love reading nice written novels, watch well produced movies, or look at paintings which you can try to imagine stories behind it.....not the ones with exaggerated story lines, but with very subtle messages.....(getting vague).....or maybe I am just thinking too much....just in one of my thinking modes....(getting dumb....:p )

Catalina Trip

We went to Catalina island yesterday, and Hui-Ling jie + Eva kinda decided to join us last min. It was very nice to hang out with them cuz we don't actually get to see them a lot nowadays since everyone has our own business to attend to. I used to talk to Hui-Ling jie a lot when I was still working with her, but now we just meet once every two weeks at prayer meeting if we don't have any other special things to do together.

Anyway....let me put up some photos for the trip. I didn't get to sleep the night before cuz for some reason Hades kinda knew we were gonna put him home alone for the whole day so he was upset for the whole night. He probably dreamed about throwing up too cuz he woke up to throw up but nothing came out....Ok...I got sidetracked again...here are the photos....

We took Catalina express from Long beach which left around 10 AM. We got there before 9, and the coffee there was horrible...:p The ride was about 1 hour going to the island. Weather was nice, and the island was not too crowded.

I really liked how the island was full of colorful sail boats and houses. It felt like Greece in a smaller scale (with less blue buildings) if you just look at the small village itself.

We had lunch at Armstrong's seafood, which was right next to the beach. The food was alright but portion was kinda small. (I think Hui-Ling jie probably thought it was over-priced :p)

The town Avalon was really cute cuz everything was small. We rented a golf car to drive around and finished checking out the island within three hours after lunch. :)

We went to check out Wrigley's memorial garden too....not too much to see other than cactus, but then it's kinda cool to know the gum guy probably bought the island. The view from the memorial tower was kinda cool too.

Looking at the town Avalon from the hill top was kinda nice. I think they need to build a lot more houses to make it look more like Europe though....then for some people who cannot go to Europe they can fake it with photos. :p

Small shops at Avalon were all very cute....but the only thing we bought there was ice cream. Ice cream with two scoops and waffle cone was around 5 dollars. :)

We were lucky enough to get a earlier ride back to LA after we checked out the whole island. We also had big dinner with ribs when we arrived Alhambra. What was the result of a fun day trip? Well....lots of photos....and a many more lbs on me and Billy. :p

I was watching the live show today and the host was interviewing Mr. 王文洋, who is the son of Taiwanese billionaire 王永慶. It was quite amusing to me that he was talking about his affair which started 12 years ago as if everything was meant to be and he just went with the flow...

Surprising enough he thinks the most important thing in educating his children is religion and moral values. In Mr. Wang's opinion, the reason why TW is much better than China is because everyone believes in Gods (pay attention here....it's God"s"...) and knows whatever they do... the Gods would be watching them...

I wonder how the whole religion and moral theory he uses to educate his children would work with his affair (which went on for 12 years while he was still married to his wife...and having kids from both women too....I have admire his kids for being dumb enough to still love their dad...maybe the money he has is not a bad thing after all). I also don't understand why the host thinks he is very "sincere" and "honest" talking about his life....(while his wife is dead already).

I guess the moral values of this world has became messed up to some extend that having affairs is a norm. Living together is ok, having kids without marriage is ok, having no integrity doing business or anything is also ok...(as long as you get by and feel happy about it). You see how feeling happy and alright about some stuff does not really mean true happiness? Denying a lot of facts in reality may be beneficial for a short time, but the end result will definitely bring a lot of suffering....(even not on yourself, but for sure on people around you or your next generations)

Anyway....enough of those crap in our world. Billy and I rode our bikes to breakfast at I-hop this morning. The ride was pretty fun I thought (even though our butts hurt afterwards). We had breakfast, checked prices for his s2000 tires, deposited some money at the ATM, and arrived back home within two hours. It's a very efficient, healthy + gas saving way of doing things. I guess the only down side of it is that we cannot carry too many things while we are riding... or else we can do shopping with the bikes too...hahaha....:)

scattered thoughts....

Accidentally started chatting with a friend this morning, and felt sorry for the stress she is going through with her relationship. I guess sometimes it's tough to end something that you are so used to for so many years, but worse than that is when you know things won't get much better the longer you stay in it. It is indeed depressing to be so close in distance and yet so far away in heart.

I have noticed people who started dating when they were young tend to stay with the same BF/GF for many years, at the end realizing they don't really match. It's quite difficult to know what we want while we were still trying to grow up and define ourselves with habits, interests, career path, and basically the whole package of our personalities. Whoever we tried to date back in high school or college may turn out to be a complete diff person years later, and our tastes might of changed drastically too.

I recently noticed I tend to evaluate people's outer appearance quite differently compared to years ago. TV or movie stars who I liked before seem to be only ok now....and vice versa....I have to admire those who have the same taste throughout their lives. It's either that they are so dull and boring thus don't see or detect differences in things/people, or that they are just consistent beyond measure.

Love is indeed a choice....but we often don't know how to make a wise choice in life. There is so much uncertainty in everything to start with, and a lot of times when we make decision we try to ignore the apparent problems which were known from the very beginning. Don't we all wish that we are as wise as King Solomon with all the God given wisdom? but hey...he felt completely empty with all that he had through life. Life is just too difficult to figure out I tell you...

So much for an originally easy-scheduled day...

Today is such a weird day which started with a weird dream. I was dreaming of my violin teacher from USC. (who happened to appear at my high school summer camp which I have no idea why I was attending.) Mr. Lipsett was never someone who I thought I would be able to joke around with, but in the dream we were eating lunch and chatting....(very pleasantly)...and even my high school violin teacher Julia was having fun with us....I remember how I was thinking "man...this is weird" while I was dreaming....

My last dental appt for 2007 was at 11 this morning, and I got there around 10:50. I was called into the room around 11:10, and waited there till 11:45. I finally got impatient (I guess I was patient enough to wait that long...) and found the dentist to ask how much longer I had to wait. He looked completely surprised to know that I was waiting, cuz the stupid assistant who called me in never told him I was even there. The dentist was wondering why I didn't show up for my appt and went to the front lobby to look for me a few times. I guess if I didn't go to ask him I would be waiting there for another hour without anyone noticing, since I was in the last room at the corner. They either just have a very bad communication or very dumb assistant. (I think it's both to be honest...)

I rushed to buy food at HK market after the dental appt (the whole treatment took only 10 min at the most by the way...but I wasted around 1 1/2 hour of my time for it), and finished shopping in 15 min. I thought I was super efficient so I might still be able to have a cup of coffee before my student arrives. Out of my expectation, Gloria was at my apartment early. She called right after I started doing laundry so I had to rush to open the door for her....

I tried to cook some stuff before my next lesson (while finishing up the laundry after lesson). I was not able to finish everything so I had to pick up laundry and put it on the car so I can teach on time. When I arrived at my student's house, I saw her mom standing at the door...and I thought...."hum...not a good sign"...Yeah....they were locked out of the door by accident....I ended up driving all the way to Pasadena for nothing, cuz they couldn't get into the house. So...I will have to teach her for two hours straight tomorrow, which results to a much more extended teaching schedule for Friday...sighs...

I drove home and started cooking again...I was finally able to sit down and drink my coffee around 5 pm....(with cooking done and all clothes folded....) I was hoping to watch my noon TV drama which I tried to record, and found out I was recording the wrong channel. Oh well...I guess it's just a day which nothing goes as planned....sighs....

No Big Deal....

Head is starting to hurt again...I am not quite sure if it's my wound from the wisdom tooth extraction or because of the bad quality of sleep I had. I don't know why I had a problem sleeping right last night. I was turning right and left on the bed throughout the whole night...just felt like I wanted to stretch every part of my body. It's really too bad my massage session only gave me one night of good sleep....sighs...

Everyone tried to wake me up this morning too....1st Billy's phone rang, and then someone's car alarm went off, and then a student's mom called....each happened just right after I get into sleep again....I finally decided to forget about it and wake up, but the coffee I am drinking right now does not seem to help my headache....yet....

Hades continued to sleep on the bed till now....almost 12....He is now officially a pig...He sleeps and eats a lot, and weights 16.2 lbs....even Nancy commented that his legs look thicker nowadays. Nancy just went back for her green card interview at TW. I guess nowadays applying green card via work is faster than getting married...ha ha ha ....

Looks like a good day to go out and walk on the beach....but I have to teach....(that rhymes man...) Felt like I should sleep in, but people didn't agree. I guess life does not always go the way we want it to go...but it's ok....no big deal. :p

Massage....

Went to my ex-roommate Katty's sister for a massage session yesterday. It was probably the high light of my life for the past week really. I didn't even realize that they moved to Rowland Heights for over a year already and I haven't have any massage for just about that long....

Emily was making a comment on how tight my muscles were and how my shoulders were hard as rocks. I guess that is why I had consistent headache for the past few weeks too. She gave me a very thorough session and I was screaming with a controlled volume because of the pain....

Basically my blood circulation has always been bad since I was a kid, and now my body cannot let out of water most of the time (on top of that I do drink a lot....sighs...). I probably also have some alignment problems of my bone disks which I guess won't be simply fixed by massage. I guess that might be caused by how much I sit on the couch everyday. :p

The result of the session was relaxed muscles with bruised feelings. My whole body was aching even till this morning. I don't think I have slept so well in a long period of time though. I was not even able to open my eyes for long when Billy was going to work, and I fell right back to sleep right after I complained about how my whole body was falling apart....

I think I need to go see Emily again in two weeks or so cuz she said she only did half treatment for me. I would love to at least sleep super well every two weeks....ha ha ha ha .....