scattered thoughts....

Accidentally started chatting with a friend this morning, and felt sorry for the stress she is going through with her relationship. I guess sometimes it's tough to end something that you are so used to for so many years, but worse than that is when you know things won't get much better the longer you stay in it. It is indeed depressing to be so close in distance and yet so far away in heart.

I have noticed people who started dating when they were young tend to stay with the same BF/GF for many years, at the end realizing they don't really match. It's quite difficult to know what we want while we were still trying to grow up and define ourselves with habits, interests, career path, and basically the whole package of our personalities. Whoever we tried to date back in high school or college may turn out to be a complete diff person years later, and our tastes might of changed drastically too.

I recently noticed I tend to evaluate people's outer appearance quite differently compared to years ago. TV or movie stars who I liked before seem to be only ok now....and vice versa....I have to admire those who have the same taste throughout their lives. It's either that they are so dull and boring thus don't see or detect differences in things/people, or that they are just consistent beyond measure.

Love is indeed a choice....but we often don't know how to make a wise choice in life. There is so much uncertainty in everything to start with, and a lot of times when we make decision we try to ignore the apparent problems which were known from the very beginning. Don't we all wish that we are as wise as King Solomon with all the God given wisdom? but hey...he felt completely empty with all that he had through life. Life is just too difficult to figure out I tell you...